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Growing Old – Lock Down Day 34

“Hope” is a most beautiful quality found in humanity, sometimes it comes naturally and at other times it needs to be nurtured, it helps to keep us going even when things seem hopeless or impossible. During these times we are all having down days and may feel a little depressed, we can look at life as a whole and think what is the point! We are finding that many things that were once important to us now hold little importance, and the things we took for granted and no longer have or can do, are becoming of higher priority. For many our lives have been turned upside down and we are confused as to where we are heading, our freedom has been taken away and our choices limited.

The word hope conjures up many different meanings for people, to wish for something, consider possible, to have confidence in, to trust, a desire, a longing for, belief in the possibility of. Hope within Christian theology is defined as the desire and search for a future good, difficult but not impossible to attain with God’s help. There is also hope against hope, false hope or against all hope, where hope can be found with little reason or justification. I personally started this year in confidence with very high hopes felt deep inside, with a knowing for this year to be an amazing one, the year of 20 20 vision. We are now mid April and nearly 5 weeks in locked down, this natural feeling has started to wear off this last week, and I find I am having to nurture it back, or at least not loose sight of it.

This may partly be due to physical problems I am experiencing this week, any illness zaps your strength both physically and emotionally. It reminds me of 2 cases where I found incredible inspiration by others living in hope. Firstly was a client of mine that endured what to me was the worst ending of life I could imagine. During his last months both he and his family were consumed in hope, looking from the outside it was a false hope an impossible hope. Even so, they were not hiding from the truth or facts they had just decided to, as a family, give it their everything with the hope something may work or a miracle happen. This gentleman was a yoga teacher, mid 40’s with 3 teenagers and a musician creating beautiful spiritual albums, as time went on this family bonded so deeply, all joyfully helping in his care when it became painful for me to watch. This unity of hope kept him alive for at least 2 weeks longer than his body should have, on his last day I remember talking to his wife again about letting him go, each day had been a miracle he had survived, but she replied “while he still has hope, we will support him in hope too”. Before I left from his treatment that day he slipped out of consciousness briefly as usual but this time he came around and said “its time to leave” as I left I told the family what he had said, they all sat around him in love and within a few hours he passed. This, what many thought was false hope is a beautiful memory of inspiration, I still see members of the family occasionally, they don’t remember so much the terrible circumstances of his illness but remember the love, the extra time they were together in honest conversations bonding in hope, knowing they tried everything with hope in all their hearts. This is one of the most beautiful things I have encountered in my life, a deep unity in love. I also lost a dear friend a few years back, her hope inspired us all, after being diagnosed with a maximum of 5 weeks to live, hope and faith gave her 4 more years of life. Besides the last month most of it was spent doing all the things she wanted to do and going to places she wanted to visit. On her initial diagnosis she told me “before I go, I hope to do all the things on this list I have written” truly inspiring to watch this all coming to pass.

This may partly be due to physical problems I am experiencing this week, any illness zaps your strength both physically and emotionally. It reminds me of 2 cases where I found incredible inspiration by others living in hope. Firstly was a client of mine that endured what to me was the worst ending of life I could imagine. During his last months both he and his family were consumed in hope, looking from the outside it was a false hope an impossible hope. Even so, they were not hiding from the truth or facts they had just decided to, as a family, give it their everything with the hope something may work or a miracle happen. This gentleman was a yoga teacher, mid 40’s with 3 teenagers and a musician creating beautiful spiritual albums, as time went on this family bonded so deeply, all joyfully helping in his care when it became painful for me to watch. This unity of hope kept him alive for at least 2 weeks longer than his body should have, on his last day I remember talking to his wife again about letting him go, each day had been a miracle he had survived, but she replied “while he still has hope, we will support him in hope too”. Before I left from his treatment that day he slipped out of consciousness briefly as usual but this time he came around and said “its time to leave” as I left I told the family what he had said, they all sat around him in love and within a few hours he passed. This, what many thought was false hope is a beautiful memory of inspiration, I still see members of the family occasionally, they don’t remember so much the terrible circumstances of his illness but remember the love, the extra time they were together in honest conversations bonding in hope, knowing they tried everything with hope in all their hearts. This is one of the most beautiful things I have encountered in my life, a deep unity in love. I also lost a dear friend a few years back, her hope inspired us all, after being diagnosed with a maximum of 5 weeks to live, hope and faith gave her 4 more years of life. Besides the last month most of it was spent doing all the things she wanted to do and going to places she wanted to visit. On her initial diagnosis she told me “before I go, I hope to do all the things on this list I have written” truly inspiring to watch this all coming to pass.

Each painting needs to explored as you can find many hidden facets within it, some in minute details. I asked for permission to use her painting, and her blessings were given, so I would like to say thank you for that. The painting below is called “Hope Springs Eternal” with Josephine’s own message for these times, “As the news seems increasingly dire and our lives change by the minute, it becomes more important than ever to nurture hope! This piece is called “Hope Springs Eternal” and though I painted it in 2006, it seems especially appropriate now.”

I hope you can nurture some hope to get you through any difficult patches, the beauty of hope is that no matter how bad things get even without a positive outcome, it can help you sail through no matter the circumstances. It helps you to be positive and happy finding joy and peace, keep the candle of hope burning and shining brightly for yourself, your family, all of humanity and our Planet. Hopes are a form of dreaming, and many Indigenous people say that we need to dream in a new world, lets do it! Please stay safe and take precautions to protect yourself and loved ones including taking care of your mental health💜



“Hope Springs Eternal” Josephine Wall
Thankyou for the permission granted.
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